India Block 10: House Visits

February 23, 2012

Normally stethoscopes and motorcycles do not mix.  However, when Indian family doctors make house calls to the slums, the combination is necessary.  How else would one venture into the narrow maze-like paths of the slums?

“Are you comfortable with riding motorcycles?” Dr. S, my physician mentor, asked.

“More or less,” I said, “it’s been a while…”  My inexperience showed as I fumbled to fasten my helmet, and awkwardly shifted my balance to saddle the seat.  “Just relax and hold on,” was his advice.

We were off into the streets of India, full of oxen pulling carts, pedestrians and many other vehicles whizzing in all directions and speaking an intense Morse-code-like language of horn taps and blows.  I felt my awareness of the dangers making me more alive.

The turn off the main road began a winding journey into the slums.  It would be unfair to call the passageways “roads” since they were barely wide enough for us to pass.  I could hardly believe my driver’s skill, and my own trust.  I squeezed my feet closer to the vehicle.  The walls were painted light blue with reflected sunlight, and for a moment I imagined parting clouds.

We were on our way to make a house visit to see Bushpa, a woman only a few years older than my mother with severe hypertension (high blood pressure) who had suffered a paralyzing stroke.  She was unable to come to the clinic due to her paralysis.  To make matters more complicated her only living family was a grandson who had a demanding work schedule and was unable to accompany her to the doctor.

These narrow alleys led us to a new land of box houses, each no larger than my bathroom in the USA. Goats and pigs were grazing at garbage-lined open sewage.  Cow dung was drying in a spotted pattern on the side of a house, “for fuel” the doctor explained.

We had barely approached when a group of women called to us.  “She’s telling me about a boy who I saw last time with bow legs,” Dr. S translated. They have a passionate interchange, and he explained that he treated this boy for rickets, but arranged a subsidized appointment for him to be seen by orthopedic specialists.  The women are explaining why the child couldn’t keep his appointment due to a nose-piercing ceremony.

“These are complicated family issues you can’t understand,” Dr. S told me. “It’s easy for you or I to get angry because the patient has ignored us.  We have different priorities. We can’t imagine the significance of family traditions here.”

After having moved forward only about ten feet, a young woman emerged from her box, holding a medical chart (which patients keep in India).  Dr. S stopped immediately, and the first thing I noticed was her pleasant smile as she spoke.

“You would imagine she’s telling me some good news by the way she smiles, right?” Dr S remarked.  As it turns out, she was a young uncontrolled diabetic who had been absent from clinic for months.  “She’s telling me that she’s been unable to come because of her husband’s alcoholism.  He’s using all their money for drinking and beating her every night.” He glanced at her medical chart and pointed to a blood sugar from her last visit in the 300’s.  He encouraged her to come to clinic the next day.

A tearful elderly woman approaches.  Without pause, the Dr. S tells me, “This woman has lost her husband one month ago.”  She spoke to us with trickling tears, and Dr. S put his hand on her shoulder. I didn’t even need translation to understand the comfort that had been given.

We moved forward, past a young by who smiled and waves. Dr. S told me he was admitted last month to the hospital for a severe asthma attack.  “Look, he’s doing much better now!”   And then we passed a man with a cloth over the side of his face.  “That man was discharged yesterday after we drained his facial abscess.  He’s looking much better too.”

Finally we arrived at Bushpa’s house!  We came for one patient, but we had already seen five.  It seemed everyone welcomed Dr. S.  Bushpa was no exception, even dragging herself to the door by cane. “Don’t help her too much,” Dr. S warns, “we need to see how she is doing when she’s alone.”

I took her blood pressure- 144/70.  Dr. S knew her well, and seemed satisfied by this.  He checked her plastic bag containing multiple medications.  As we left, she seemed to be pleading as she asked Dr. S to “please come back and see me again soon.”

Before we get back to the hospital, Dr. S began to tell me Bushpa’s complicated history.  Although as we passed several more people, Bushpa’s tale became interspersed with fragments from other patients.  I was in awe that Dr. S knew so many stories.

Dr. S explained the value of house visits, noting “we can’t expect patients to come find us if they don’t see us.  These are people who will never go to see a doctor if you waited for them.”  I have only one thought, “I want to be like this doctor!”  But how can it be done in the USA?

The next morning at diabetic group clinic, I was surprised to see the young woman with the beautiful smile.  To everyone else, she was just another patient in the room.  For me, she was a miracle, one of the unexpected fruits from my previous afternoon.


India Block 10: First Day Prenatal Care

February 2, 2012

My first few days in India are best described as “sensory overload.” First, there are the colors, everything from the dingiest black to the brightest gold. Then there is the warmth, spicy foods, smells, horns, crowds, garbage & beauty everywhere I look. And finally, the chaos and disorganization. Nothing is quite as expected, which can drive someone mad when she isn’t used to it. Patience and flexibility are not virtues in India, but absolute necessities! Fortunately I cultivated a lot of this in Peace Corps.

However, the population is so condensed and I am such an outsider, that this experience feels much more intense than any other developing country I’ve visited. I can’t even begin to put it all into words, and I’m already sorry that there is so much I won’t be able to share with you.

But, I’ll just begin by sharing something about today. My first clinical posting isn’t what I expected, but it’s absolutely perfect for me. I am at a low cost unit, which is a small division of the hospital that provides subsidized care to the poorest Indians. It is akin to a Federally Qualified Health Center (FQHC) in the USA, although the subsidies are from private donations, rather than the government.

My experience has already exceeded my expectations because the entire low cost unit is run by family physicians, many of whom were trained in the USA.  I didn’t expect to meet any family physicians because I was told that India does not recognize the specialty, but the people I met are full spectrum family doctors in the truest sense, and all identify themselves that way.

I was overjoyed to see "Family Medicine" as I approached the director's office on my first day. He explained that India doesn't officially accredit family doctors (yet), but they are hoping to be pioneers of this discipline in India.

I spent the whole morning doing prenatal care with two female doctors. I learned so many interesting things during this experience, but perhaps the most interesting was that dating the pregnancies was extremely problematic. The doctors had an excellent ultrasound machine and were highly skilled. However, most of the poor women failed to keep track of menstrual cycles, nor realize they were pregnant.

Many of them presented in the 2nd and even 3rd trimester, a time when dating isn’t very accurate. Some women in the USA also don’t realize they are pregnant until late, however this is the exception. At the clinic this morning, it seemed to be the norm. This creates many problems, not the least of which is inability to provide effective prenatal care.

Also, it is a national law that sex cannot be revealed due to the high amount of female infanticide. All the women had to sign special documents saying that we had not revealed the sex.

I couldn’t help but think about the contrast between American patients and the Indian women I saw today.  The Indian women were much more poorly nourished than any American woman I have seen. For example, “obesity ” is defined as BMI>27 (not 30 like the USA). The norm for birth weight at this hospital is around 5 lbs. The maternal mortality is extremely high in India.

The chart about fundal heights for prenatal exams. I was struck by how much smaller Indian babies are than US babies. The average birthweight here is 5.5lb.

I couldn’t help but feel depressed about the terrible allocation of resources. In the USA women are extremely educated and concerned about pregnancy, and wealthy enough to consume prenatal vitamins, take medications, try various types of diets, eat supplemented food, etc. Why do American woman (who are better nourished and healthy to begin with) use so many vitamins which would be better utilized on the women I met today?


India Block 10: Global Health

January 29, 2012

Exciting news! In late November I was chosen for a Global Health Grant offered my university, so my next 4-week elective will be abroad.  I am leaving tonight to travel farther than I have ever traveled before.

About $20 in Indian Rupees.

India here I come!  I hoped to take advantage of opportunities to go abroad during my 4th year of medical school.  Now I am about to visit a country I have deeply admired since childhood.

My first  memory of Indian culture was attending an Indian dance festival when I was in the 2nd grade.  The spicy smells, crowds and exotic music drew me in.  The brilliant stories of romance unfolded with hand gestures accented by pleated fabric, and more shiny gold than I had ever seen before.

Since then, I’ve had friends and colleagues from India, parents and relatives who traveled to India, and many delicious Indian meals (some I even cooked myself).  In fact, let’s check out my spice rack right now…

Indian spices alongside “Spanish Paprika” and “Southwest Rub,” a beautiful example of our globalized world.  Medicine is participating in this type of globalization too, a deluge of diseases and treatment styles spice up the science.  I’m proud that my school believes global experience is important for future physicians. So do a growing number of residency programs who I noticed advertising “global health” as part of their curriculum.

Most people have asked me some version of: “Do you know what you’ll actually be doing?!”   Not exactly.  I was told I would be given “postings” in “Community Health” (India’s version of “Family Medicine”) and “Infectious Disease.”  As a total outsider, I certainly don’t expect to be very useful, but I’ll have lots of humility, gratitude and compassion, and I’ll do what medical students do best, be a sponge.

For the last week, I’ve mainly been focussing on preparation.  I read about India.  I communicated with Indians. I spent an hour gawking at Google Earth (after which I felt like a speck of dust in the universe).  I started my antimalarial prophylaxis. And now it’s time to pack… packing LIGHT… a true art form!

What's in my bag for this global health trip?


Adolescent Medicine Block 9: CC Nausea

January 27, 2012

Her* CC (chief complaint) was “nausea.”  Although I hate to sound like the proverbial adolescent doctor, my first thought was “pregnancy test.” The nurse was way ahead of me, and had already done it.  “Negative,” she whispered to me, before I entered the room.

I rattled through the long list of possibilities in my mind.  Gastrointestinal infection? Side effect of medications?  Abuse? I took a history and performed my physical exam, and exited the room still feeling confused.  I presented the patient to my attending physician.

“A 15 year-old female otherwise healthy, chief complaint of nausea, who reports acutely feeling nauseous while eating dinner last night.  The nausea self-resolved, then she awoke this morning with one episode of about 100ml yellow, watery emesis (=she threw-up a little).  Then felt hungry and ate normally.  No fever/ chills, no abdominal pain, no diarrhea, no light-headedness, no head-aches, no unusual foods.  Her last episode of emesis was ‘stomach flu’ a few years ago and ‘this does not feel the same.’”

“No medications or allergies, no past medical or surgical history.  She lives with mom and dad, has “good” peer relationships- non-smoker, no alcohol, no illicit drugs, she is sexually active with one male partner, denies violence or abuse. Physical exam unremarkable. Beta HCG (pregnancy test) negative.”

Then, I eloquently explained that I wasn’t sure what was going on.  Maybe an early gastrointestinal infection?  But it didn’t really fit.  Puzzling!

“When was her last LMP?” my preceptor asked.  I admitted that  hadn’t taken a detailed menstrual history because pregnancy had been ruled out.  “Well, let’s find out.”  We went back in the room together, and he asked her directly.

“Oh, I just got my period today actually,” she replied.

AHA!  A light bulb went off for us.  “Wow,” I thought, “my preceptor is brilliant.”  Obviously he has been working with adolescents for many years.  He knew not to expect adolescents to volunteer all the relevant information.  His expression didn’t change, and he calmly began explaining how prostaglandin release during ovulatory cycles can cause a variety of symptoms, including nausea and vomiting, and how to block the prostaglandin release with ibuprofen or naproxen.

This illustrates why I love working with adolescents.  They are straight-forward, but do not make health correlations on their own.  This leaves more detective work for health professionals, and requires stronger history-taking skills and critical thinking. They have made the “Sherlock Holmes” aspects of my job much more interesting this month.

*Please note all patient identifying information has been intentionally changed or omitted.  While the details are modified, my overall experience remains true.


Adolescent Medicine Block 9: Addiction Clinic

January 21, 2012

My first morning of adolescent medicine began in one of the worst parts of town.  A long brick wall was broken by a video camera bizarrely angled toward the nondescript metal door.  Admittance was only achieved after a long hard pull, followed by an appropriate creek of welcome.  I had arrived at the specialized clinic for young opiate addicts.

Here I would spend about a third of my time observing adolescents participating in a Suboxone treatment program. Truth be told, I have a special interest in drug addicts.  This population so desperately needs coordinated psychological and medical help, and generally addicts are treated terribly by the health care system.   They are not only underserved, but seemingly under-cared for.

I learned from my preceptor that adolescents have an especially difficult time seeking medical help because most adult rehab programs don’t feel comfortable taking care of young people.  Unfortunately, most pediatricians aren’t comfortable with addicts either.  This leaves extremely limited resources for a large at risk population.

My preceptor was extremely calm, and demonstrated how to take a full history about addiction.  This is something I was never taught in my medical interviewing classes.  When did it start? How much were you using? How did you split the dose?  How many bags? Did you ever sell sex for drugs?  Ever share needles? Ever drive while you were high? Did you smoke it, snort it, shoot it? Which veins did you use?  Any skin infections? When was your last use?

“Observing,” as I quickly learned, also meant watching the women give their urine samples.  After performing rectal exams, vaginal exams and other procedures, I thought watching somebody urinate would be no big deal.  However, I felt awkward when I got in the stall for the first time.  How close was I supposed to be?  Did I need to visualize the urethral area?  Look or turn away?  Suddenly I felt a great appreciation for nurses, who usually are involved intimately with bodily functions.  I later asked my preceptor, who explained it was more important to “look and feel for the appropriate color and temperature” than visualize the details.

One patient* came in quite obviously “high.” As I watched her urinate, she laughed insidiously.  “Oh boy, you must be so excited to watch me!” I kept silent and tried to seem “professional.”.  Her urine came back the following week positive for several different drugs, and she never showed up for her next appointment.

A new patient* showed me remnants of a huge abscess, which had destroyed her last good access point.  She told me “I’m here because I can’t get my veins to pop anymore.”  With shriveled surface veins, she felt forced into treatment.

The experience was poignant-not simply invading someone’s privacy for greater good- but learning more about the people behind these addictions. These were hard-working, friendly young people with career aspirations.  Most of them had started going down the path of addiction because doctors or dentists had prescribed Percocet or Vicadin for “legitimate” reasons (broken bones, wisdom teeth, surgery, etc.).   How many times had I helped prepare these prescriptions?  Perhaps too many times.

*Please note all patient identifying information has been intentionally changed or omitted.  While the details are modified, my overall experience remains true.


Interviews Over

January 9, 2012

Three-thousand dollars, fourty-two days, thirty-four interviews and thank-you notes, eleven flights, nine interview days, eight programs, five hotels, four states, three blouses, two rental cars and one suit.  This season a.k.a. “the holidays” was transformed into a fun-filled, empowering adventure that took me across the country and beyond my expectations.

I would like to especially thank global warming, for providing the insanely warm weather I needed to take my carbon footprint to new levels.  ALL ELEVEN of my flights were either on-time or early!  If you know me, this is absolutely unheard of.  I’m queen of crazy flights – at least 30% of my travels are foiled by airplanes gone bad. I’m mesmerized by my new record.

And a huge thank you to all my friends and family who helped me by hosting, giving me rides, loaning their vehicles and providing moral support.  It was a joy to spend time with all of you.  I really had a lot of fun!

My favorite question during my travels was: “So when will you find out where you’re going?”

Me: “March 16th at 1 o’clock Eastern Standard Time.” (Which always produced inquisitive looks… since when does somebody know the exact date and time of day when her future is revealed?  Since the Match!)

I’m humbled that everything seemed to go so positively.  Well,  for the most part -there was one day when I forgot my suit jacket, and one hotel reservation I thought I made (but apparently never hit the “confirm” button).  But in the end, everything turned out fine.  I even got a cheaper rate at that hotel.

And while I was searching for the “ONE” (perfect program), I discovered that actually I could be happy at most of the programs.  Now the Match seems like it will probably be a win-win situation.  After my final interview day, I sat down with a cup of tea and calmly jotted down a tentative rank list.  I couldn’t believe that it felt effortless. I showed it to my husband and switched two programs, and then it was over.

Before I knew it I was back home last weekend celebrating the New Year.  My clinical skills felt a bit rusty as I returned to work this week, but I’m enjoying a new rotation, “Adolescent Medicine.”  Happy 2012- the year of my medical graduation and many surprises!


Starting Residency Match and Interviews

December 6, 2011

My medical journey is full of layers lately.  I’ve been writing about elective rotations and board exams, but meanwhile something big is happening.  I’m applying to residencies, I’m traveling to interviews, 4th year is more than half over, and graduation is getting real.  It’s difficult to include all these life layers, but as I begin my residency interviews, I realize a big update is in order.

The Match

For my non-medical friends and family, I usually need to explain “the Match” process more than once.  In part, it is because I don’t completely understand the detailed process myself.  In September, I registered with two online websites, one for my residency application and the other for my match.  I completed my application, submitted it to programs and received interview invitations.  In January, I will use the match website to rank the programs where I interviewed.

Then, on “Match Day” (March 16th 1pm), I will get an envelope with one residency program match inside.  The match algorithm is akin to Harry Potter’s Sorting Hat.*  It intelligently, and mysteriously, divides future physicians amongst limited residency positions based on both student and program preferences.  Of note, we also attend a fancy “Match Day” event with an audience, speeches and food (no bewitched night sky though).

Interviews

The interviews are turning out to be more empowering and fun than I thought they woud be.  First of all, I got my first suit, and each time I wear it, I see this incredibly sharp person in the mirror. I love the feeling of seeing myself so grown up.  Then, there is the balancing act between travels, locations, activities and information, which is daunting but equally empowering.  Each interview has involved delicious food, 4-5 actual interviews, lots of socializing with my future colleagues and tours of hospitals and clinics.

I feel like goldilocks,* sampling each porridge, trying to find the one that is “just right!”  I simplified my work by scheduling less interviews than most, but still it’s no easy task.  I find myself mentally exhausted. The programs and residents are seeing whether applicants are a good fit for their programs too, interviewing about 10-20 applicants for each position available.  I try not to think about the odds.

Perhaps the best part of all this, however, is that I am getting to see friends and new places along my route, and I am learning about myself.  As I articulate the answers to interview questions and describe my feelings to friends and family, I’ve felt clearer about what I want in residency

As these multiple life layers unfold, I hope for absolute clarity by the end of January!  Ha-ha.  Does anyone know where I can find a Sorting Hat?!

*I give full credit to my friends, Kara and Ryan, for their clever analogies.  Thanks!


Repro Endo Block 7: Transfer

November 27, 2011

The first transfer I saw was in a delivery room, although the woman was not pregnant.  Her position reminded me of somebody giving birth, but instead her belly was full of urine.  She had been drinking water all morning to expand her bladder, straighten her uterus and allow for a better view.  How uncomfortable!  Her husband stood by her holding her hand.  In a room a few doors down the hall, the embryologist prepared two embryos, which were now a few days-old.  I thought of everything she did to get herself here.

I did not know the extent that women must go to seek ART (Assisted Reproductive Technologies).   First, in order to diagnose the reason for infertility, both the man and woman must undergo testing, like uncomfortable imaging of the uterus, blood draws and sperm analysis.  Then, most of the medications prescribed are injected and require ultimate compliance, which can involve alarms during the night.

Finally, in order to assure the timing of ovulation perfectly, women undergo vaginal ultrasounds every 48 hours as their ovaries begin to respond to the drugs.  So a woman might come for 10 vaginal ultrasounds before her procedure is scheduled.  It requires serious commitment to come to the doctor early in the morning to have a probe inserted inside you.  Most women came alone, and had to disclose this very private and sensitive issue to their workplaces.

If the cycle failed (no pregnancy), they would start all over again.  Meanwhile, the treatments were expensive, and the medications made many women feel depressed or emotional.  I wanted these patients to have children dearly, but I was surprised by what they endured to reach their goals.  These women were some of the strongest I have met with hidden stories of trauma, multiple miscarriages, unexplained infertility and rare diseases.

The woman in the bed was undergoing IVF (In Vitro Fertilization), the most successful, but also the most invasive and expensive of all the treatments.  A few days earlier I had helped her when she went under general anesthesia to have her eggs retrieved.  Her husband had been present that day to donate fresh sperm, but he had to leave for work immediately afterwards, leaving her alone in our care.  The fertilization occurred in a plastic dish about 2 inches in diameter.

Now the embryos appeared to be tiny clusters of cells, too small to reveal their genetic content.  The doctor took several minutes to carefully insert a practice catheter (without embryos) into the uterus through the cervix.  A nurse pressed constantly on the patient’s bladder with the ultrasound probe, so we could visualize the placement of the catheter.  When the doctor was satisfied, she was ready for the real catheter with embryos.

We all were quiet as she injected the embryos into the uterus, a process that took only a few seconds.  And then, she sent the catheter back down the hall for a microscopic check to make sure all the embryos were emptied.  We waited.

“It’s clear,” the embryologist announced after a few seconds.  And then, we were done.  It would take about 2 weeks to know whether these embryos resulted in a pregnancy.  I wondered what was going through the woman’s mind.  I imagined babies being made in a loving sexual partnership, but here we were trying to make a baby in a sterile field with uncomfortable probes and catheters.  Yet, I felt warm, and noticed that she glowed with hope.

While many of our patients did get pregnant, this first transfer patient did not.  Two weeks later I saw her, tearfully waiting in the office for a follow-up visit.  I knew instantly the procedure had failed, and I felt a wave of sadness for her loss.  And more importantly I felt her anger and fear that despite all she endured, she may never experience biological motherhood.  I left with a new appreciation for the uncontrollable aspects of pregnancy, a powerful miracle that so many take for granted.

 

 


Repro Endo Block 7: Lessons

November 19, 2011

My month at the Reproductive Endocrinology clinic was not without a few faux pais, and some special new lessons:

1. This clinic is also known as the “fertility clinic,” not the “infertility clinic” (think positive here).

2. Be silent when human embryos are in the room.

3. Embryos are “transfered,” not “transplanted” into the uterus.

4. Put the condom on the vaginal ultrasound probe BEFORE the patient comes into the room.

5. RPL stands for “recurrent pregnancy loss,” not to be confused with RPR (the lab test for syphilis).

6. HSG is a histosalpingogram, not to be confused with SHG, a sonohistogram. Both are imaging studies of the uterus.

7. Eggs are “retrieved,” not “harvested,” thus the procedure is “Egg Retrieval,” not an “Egg Harvest.”

8. Do not leave anything with photos of babies anywhere near the patient exam rooms.

9. Finding the left ovary on vaginal ultrasound is the most difficult part.  Save that for last.

10. Infertility treatments are physically and emotionally exhausting.  Always keep plenty of tissues on hand.

 

 

 


Step 2 CS My Last Test (of Med School)

November 15, 2011

Tomorrow morning I’ll take the final part of my USMLE Step 2 called CS or Clinical Skills.  It’s my last and most expensive exam of medical school.  And it’s only offered in five US cities.

Sure I feel a little nervous (hard not to be when I paid $1400 +airfare).  I had some test dreams where for some reason I was driving through a blizzard on my test day, and another where I overslept.  That’s what my subconscious makes of these exams.

But I’m also having fun with it.  I flew here a few days early to visit a college friend.  Amidst catching up about life, she also pretended to be my patient to help me practice (we giggled a lot, which won’t be on my actual exam).  Then tonight I checked into a hotel near my testing center, ironed my outfit and took a walk admiring the city skyline at night.

I love these types of exams with real people acting as my patients.  I would rather take fifty of these over any multiple-choice board exam.  I guess that’s good since this test is more like my actual job as a physician.

Tomorrow will feel like an 8-hour clinic day with twelve 15-minute appointments. I’ll be graded on important skills such as my physical exam, history-taking, compassion, ability to speak English and hygiene.  Then, probably in after about a quarter-century, I’ll get my score.  Haha, it will probably take about 2 months at least.

Well… ready to go.  Did I mention this is my LAST TEST of medical school?!

(Several people congratulated me on my last test EVER after I posted this entry with the title, “My Last Test.”  So, I clarified things. I still have several more exams in my future: Step 3 and Family Medicine Boards during residency, and then licensing exams every 10-years thereafter. But at least it’s my last test for a while!)


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